Lately my mind has been pulling a...well, I guess I would call it a overhaul. My brain is working double time due to all the stuff going on and I think that I just need to unleash.
I have not really been as "on" this blog as I would like to be, in fact I think I normally write when I have something pressing to say. Right now, I have everything and absolutely nothing to say...so I am writing.
This could end up being a bad idea.
Well, work is going realllllly well. Almost too well. I have gotten into the groove of things, but now it is almost monotonous. I don't know what I am really aiming for here. I got this job that pays the bills, but I think I am realizing that I am working because I have to. I know, "Welcome to the Real World Morghan. You and the majority of the population are working because you have to." I think that I am just hung up on it because my first thought is "why." I am not really the kind of person that wants to save money for a rainy day. I want to travel and see the world. I want to spend all my time with family and friends. I want to hitchhike all over the continental US. I want to help everyone that needs it. I want to create really awesome outfits and be able to wear them wherever I want. I want to write for the hell of it, and not because I have a project or a report or anything of that nature. I want to read books that move me, not articles on changing trend patterns. I want to be free to do everything I deeply desire. However, I am stuck in this thing called society and I have to follow it's stipulations to a certain degree. Which kinda sucks....
I just got to spend 5 days with my amazing boyfriend, and now I literally ache for him. I never thought that love actually hurt. I thought that was something that silly, unintelligent people say. Man, has that opinion come back to bite me in the butt. It really is hard to be in a long distance relationship, like crazy hard. I miss so many aspects of being in a relationship that sometimes I feel like the day to day stuff that is so important is the stuff that I'm not really experiencing.... It's just frustrating is all.
Ok, this was a very "me, me, me" post, which I kinda hate...but I think it was important to get all this stuff off my chest.
Until Next Time!
Morghan
I love your comment about being stuck in this thing called society. I had never thought of it that way until I started taking these sociology classes. Maybe it's a "my generation thing" because I'm also learning about how the different times we were born in affects us, too. It's probably like DUH? but I'm being honest here. I love you, sweet one. Hang in there cause things are constantly changing.
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